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Emotive unstable,
You're like an unwinding cable car
Listening for voices,
But it's the choices that make us who we are
Go your own way, even seasons have changed
Just burn those new leaves over
So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore
The prayers that have already come about

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in...

~*Anberlin

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Hey everyone. I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile - for the longest time, every time I sat down to write something, nothing came out. I went through a pretty dry spell for awhile, but I hope that it's soon ending.

I've started a full-time position at work now, so that's also taking up most of my time lately. I feel rusty at writing, so I might look around the net for a few writing exercises to "get back into shape," as it were.
I have managed to write a few new things in my absence, and I should be posting them soon; I just have to find the time, ahaha.

Life is about to get about 50% more busy than it has been, though - I start school again in August and it's definitely going to be interesting doing that and managing to somehow get full-time work hours to keep up my insurance and all. Can you say sleep-deprived?

I've been thinking about a lot lately as a lot of things in my life have been changing and forcing me to grow up a bit. This year has definitely been a challenge in a few ways; yet in other ways, I still feel like I'm being lazy because of the challenges I face elsewhere. I guess part of me believes that I deserve a space in time where I can drop my guard, but life is an onward, awkward, upward struggle most of the time and, honestly, to drop my guard or to become slack at any point could be fatal, especially in a time of such change and growth. I just need to find some way to stay motivated and keep going.

An important way to accomplish this that I've found is not to dwell in the past. Shake it off and move forward. Others may not like that; some may refuse to grow with you and sometimes it means moving forward on your own so that you don't stay stagnant and stilt your growth. In the end, I believe it's always for the best. If someone else wants to stay stuck in the past and play the victim-mentality card, let them and move on unless God tells you otherwise. Just my opinion.

Anyway, it's late and I have to get to bed - I have to be up early.

G'night everyone!

~*Alex